sometimes,

i forget what to truly appreciate in life. i focus on the tiny imperfections, obsessively, so much so that it eventually spoils everything. if one tiny little thing isn't right, i obsess and worry and work on changing it, when sometimes, it doesn't really need changing at all.

i need to oversee the little things and enjoy my life and the people in it for what they are :)

vicky, you cunt.

your song, ellie goulding/elton john 

so excuse me forgetting, but these things i do

i've forgotten if they're green or they're blue

but anyway the thing is, what i really mean 

is that yours are the sweetest eyes i've ever seen

i'm in a very strange mood.

i'm not happy, sad, angry, upset, jealous, confused, scared, cheeky, melancholy...

i'm just, idk. there?

what you know, two door cinema club
i can tell just what you want,
you don't want to be alone

hang it up, the ting tings
people say it's not worth the wait,
but everybody loves somebody to hate

guns and horses, ellie goulding
i kow you've been burned,
but every fire is a lesson learned

busy, olly murs
we spend all our time lying side by side,
going nowhere, it's really something
getting busy, doing nothing

national anthem, lana del rey
red, white, blue is in the skies
summer's in the air and heaven's in your eyes

pumpkin soup, kate nash
the light's are on,
and someone's home,
but i don't know if they're alone

oops, i did it again...

again, i've not blogged in a whiiiiile. well, nearly a month to be exact. and let me tell you, a shit load of stuff has gone down!...

i've had a few ups and downs this month, what with home life being a bit dodgy and losing dee, i've felt a little bit bleugh. i understand that she was ill, and it was the kindest thing to do, but since i don't live at home anymore, it was hard not being there for her or my family.

on a lighter note, i have my flat for next year sorted. i'm still on campus, luckily, living with six other girls; chloe, plamena, marketa, xristina, lian and elizabeth. i don't know the other girls as well as chloe and plam, my current flatmates, but they seem nice enough :) our new flat is like a little house, with a double kitchen, proper sofas, shared bathrooms split over two floors, more room to PARTAYYY! i will miss my other flatmate sam though, he's my little baby. he needs looking after, and a firm hand to keep him from straying :P he's living with some guys next year, who are really nice and interesting, but i know he'll miss us :)

and surprise surprise, i changed my hair again :) idk why i do it. i say it's because i get bored, but tbh, i think it's a way of changing myself when my life changes, if that makes sense? it's something i can have control over.

TAAA-DAHHHH! it's fucking long as well, down to my waist, more than can be said for my natural hair *grow you bugger, shakes angry fist*

alllssoooo, i got a new boyfriend *whoooo* yes, it finally happened with ben, after much persuading ;) and it's been bloody brilliant! we've been loadsa different places, and he even works with me now at london bridge. we pretty much spend every day together, either just texting or seeing each other. he's treated me completely different than any other guy i've had a relationship with. he's caring, sweet and genuinely wants to spend time with me :) it's new, special and different :)

so that's it for now guys, will do another catch up soon...