miss missing you, fall out boy
sometimes before it gets better
the darkness gets bigger
the one you'd take a bullet for,
is the one behind the trigger

move along, all american rejects
hands are shaking cold
these hands are meant to hold

you make it real for me, james morrison 
my head is strong, but my heart is weak
i'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
when i can't find the words
you teach my heart to speak

have you ever..

had someone say something to you that genuinely leaves you speechless? like actually knocks the breath from your lungs? i experienced that today, a feeling that i've not really had before. i don't like it, and it's not happening again.

absolutely flipping fuming. so bloody angry. GAHHHH!

still into you, paramore
i should be over all the butterflies
but i'm into you
baby, even on our worst nights
i'm into you

young volcanoes, fall out boy
americana, exotica
do you wanna feel a little beautiful, baby?

explosions, ellie goulding
needing somebody and you've learned
it's okay to be afraid

i can't even begin to explain.

i feel as if a huge weight as been lifted off my shoulders. that the little grey cloud above my head is now starting to fade, letting the sun shine through.

the past few days have been a wake up call. not only to stop and think about myself and my well being, but of those closest to me. and how i've treated them.

hopefully, this is the first step in becoming myself again. no looking back :)

idk.

someone: 'what's up what's happened?'
me: 'nothing. apart from that i have no job, no money, moving back home soon, exams next week, non existent social life, home's a bit shit. that's all'

it's one of those 'nothing's wrong, but feel sorry for myself' days'.

god, i feel shit.