this is really not good. i thought these had stopped, but nope they're back again. the one night i sleep early, and actually need to, they fucking come back. now? i won't sleep all night.

if you've never had one. let me tell you, it is one of the most terrifying experiences you could ever have. being awake, but asleep at the same time. screaming in your head, but unable to make a noise. ready to run, but completely paralysed. gasping for breath but there's nothing in your lungs. waking up and having no idea why you can't breath, is the scariest thing ever.

i fucking hate this. and the one thing that helps me, i can't have it.